~X( ma|dita`ko^_-

dO yOu believe in destiny.?! as far as i’ve knOwn destinies lies On us.. it is us whO made Our Own destiny in life.. the One whO picks the right chOices.. either tO pick the stOne Or the rOck; and the One whO leads Our Own way tO the right path in life.. [unsa ni bOut life / love.?! ]

why peOple are always falling in lOve yet they failed? they feel that love is in the air but then they again stumble and fall? i wOndered what really LOve is.?! why LOve always hurt peOple in sO many ways? and why lOve make sOme peOple gOin’ crazy and wOrst is peOple tend tO cOmmit suicide just because Of lOVe.. dO lOve can realize all his mistakes?

On the cOntrary, lOt Of peOple blame lOve On what is happening in their lives.. they think lOve is the One making their lives sO miserable but in fact lOve is just what they truly feel and nOt the One whO made their lives sO miserable.

relevance.?! i myself again felt in love.. tO the persOn whOm he can face his Own lOneliness and cried like a child in the cOrner Of his dark rOom. | can pOssibly say that he cOuld be the One ’cause Of sOme similarities we had and Of this similar attitude we’ve encOuntered, understanding. we bOth understand Our individual feelings Of each day passes by. we talked bOut what had happen that particular day, tO what we’ve felt day by day. During Our days Of knOwing each Other’s differences, we bOth fOund Out that we have pOtentials in making sOme sOrt Of special bOnding. but days have passed, this particular guy is really sO weak deep within. he can’t trust himself with full cOnfidence.. he thinks that he can’t dO it and can’t be accepted tO that particular girl he needed the mOst.. he thinks that what had happened tO him awhile agO might happen tOday. he just Only hOpe that sOmeday that girl he lOve wOuld lOve him in return. but what shOuld he dO tO get what he truly wanted.?

and On the Other side, the girl is always waiting fOr the guy tO continue his cOurtship.. she still waits fOr him even if it takes fOrever. she wanted him tO be part in her life and always be by his side. she always misses him and loves him withOut anything in return. she misses him a lOt and waiting fOr the right time tO cOme that sOmeday that particular guy he cares and lOves mOst wOuld cOme intO her life and rOck her wOrld. days have passed, seems that the bOy didn’t even nOtice any signs frOm the girl even if hOw hard the girl give him lOt Of signs just tO make his secOnd mOve fOr that right time they always wanted tO be.. but later, the girl felt that the guy dOn’t need her anymOre. she felt that the guy dOn’t lOve her the way she lOve that guy. that she might think that the guy dOn’t really lOve her at first! sO she decided tO stOp what he truly feel tO that guy and stOp all fOolishness they. it’s sO painful fOr the girl tO fOrget that particular guy ’cause that guy is already part in her life and the Only One whOm he can cOnfide with.. that guys is the Only One whO makes her laugh even in her dullest days Of his life.. he’s the Only One whO cOuld fill the emptiness Of his sOul that Once emptied by a sudden stranger in her life. she fOrget all their mem`ries even if she knOws hOw hard and painfull she’ll feel. even if she’ll cry everynight but then she still wanted tO fOrget that particular guy. ’cause the mOre they wOuld talk and cOmmunicate tO each Other the mOre the girl wOuld fall in lOve with the guy and she dOn’t want tO be hurt again and sOmeday seeing herself alOne in an empty space again crying like a child.. crying just because Of the painfulness she felt deepwithin, and that’s because Of lOving that particular guy that Once draw a smile in her face.

|f we’re meant fOr each Other why GOd wOn’t give us a chance tO be tOgether and spread lOVe up in the air.. why He can’t give us what we want.. and why we peOple dOn’t knOw hOw tO shOw what they truly felt.?! [arggggggggg.. maka pikOn nah ka!]

what may be the reasOns, well i dOn’t knOw.. Only Our destinies cOuld answers all Our unanswered questiOns.. and Only God knews everything whats meant fOr us..

but still, i’m hOping and praying that sOmeday we cOuld be in Love..

"|t’s a mystery why lOve tend tO unnerve me.. |t’s a mystery why lOve tend tO hurt me always.. |t’s a mystery why lOve tend tO leave me in a dark place sObbing like a child.. and |t’s a mystery why lOve wOn’t give me a chance tO shOw my true feelings fOr yOu.."

~thanked yOu fOr making / shOwing me hOw yOu truly cared fOr me and lOve me in a different way. i have thanked yOu fOr helping me fOrget all my past bad experiences bOut lOve in sOme Other guys.. but One thing fOr sure,  nOw |’ve |earned tO |ove yOu even mOre and this much is true!…

~| admit it, | lOve yOu and i’ll always will.. o_O